All truth passes through three stages.
First, it is ridiculed.
Second, it is violently opposed.
Third, it is accepted as being self-evident.

Saturday, August 13, 2016


A couple weeks ago I was visiting over at and happened to read the article 'Virtue And The Streets: A Dummy's Guide To Police Work' by ever-the-cop-apologist Fred Reed.

There were several negative comments about the article and about Law Enforcement Officers (LEOs) in general, and I decided to add one of my own to the collection. Checking back later, I found that someone going by the name UTU had complimented me on my comment and then afterwards had gotten into a back-and-forth argument / debate with two fellas -- SteveRogers42 and JoeF -- who were obviously involved in "law enforcement" (uniformed trough-feeders, as William Grigg refers to them).

I left a comment for UTU, telling him that in my opinion he had made mincemeat out of the cops in their debate. And that's when the fun started...

JoeF couldn't resist responding to my comment to UTU and, ladies and gentlemen, that was the starting gun and... we're off!

I decided to turn this debate into a blog bit by posting the comments below, and you can make your own determination about who crossed the finish line first. I'll remain in "classic black" and put the LEOs in "porcine blue":

STEPHEN T. McCARTHY (August 1, 2016)
There are some good comments above, and the nature of my own comment will indicate quite clearly which of them I have in mind when evaluating them positively.

Fred Reed is a very talented, clever, and humorous writer, but I’m beginning to lose my patience with his (too-frequent now with his advancing age) outdated viewpoints.

(That stat may not be 100% accurate, but it’s close enough.)

It’s always been bad with the cops — it’s always been an “Us Against Them”, or “Blue Against Every Other Color” attitude — but it’s much worse today than ever before. I’m as “blue collar” as it gets; as “conservative” as it gets; I’m a gun owner who grew up in an exceptionally racially diverse area of Los Angeles; I despise Communist front organizations like BLM, et al. And I have known many cops on a personal, friendly level, which helps to explain my hatred of most cops today.

My Grandfather was a police reserve officer, and as a teenager (14-17) in the 1970s, I was a high-ranking member of my local Police Explorer program. That’s where I first got to know cops very well in a relaxed, personal way. They took us on campouts, introduced me to underage drinking and porno movies. Yeah, they’re strictly law and order guys through and through! Many of them were blind-drunk and driving 4 hours after their shifts ended.

The reason they’re even worse today than yesteryear is that most cops today have come out of the military where the only skills they learn are how to break things and kill people. Then you give these steroid-raging psychopaths a badge and turn them loose on society where they can let their little power trips play out with little to no oversight. “Break Things And Kill People” isn’t exactly a mindset that’s compatible with the motto “To Protect And Serve”. LEO wasn’t always an automatic professional step from post-military goon.

I hereby sentence in-the-dark and out-to-lunch Fred Reed to 3 years of daily reading at the websites “Police Misconduct”, “Police State USA”, and William Grigg’s “Pro Libertate”. Then we’ll see if he still holds the same opinion of these Thugs-In-Blue that he does today.

STMcC (August 8, 2016)
UTU, surely you know it plenty well enough without me even having to state it, but I will state it nonetheless: You thoroughly crushed your opponents SteveRogers42 and Joef here — both of whom are LEO apologists with blinders on. (Probably cops themselves or somehow related to or associated with LEOs.)

At any rate, you did a good job providing evidence / examples to support your arguments. Hopefully more and more people will regularly visit the websites I previously mentioned (“Police Misconduct”, “Police State USA”, and William Grigg’s “Pro Libertate”) so as not to be fooled by propagandist characters such as the ones you crushed here.

If I were the benevolent dictator of the USA, a rule I would immediately establish is that no former military personnel would be allowed to hold any LEO job. As I also stated earlier, the “Break Things And Kill People” mindset is NOT compatible with the motto “To Protect And Serve” the general populace. I’m convinced that the BIGGEST problems we have with cops today stems from the fact that the vast majority of them have come with a military background (and so many of them raging on ‘roids).

JoeF (August 8, 2016)
He is detached from reality, and would probably make a great crime victim so I wouldn’t recommend him leaving his bubble fantasy world. He never answers any questions, he just repeats his talking points. I guess you do not understand the concept of statistical outliers, which always exist.

I am not making up things as I go along like you guys, and I am not going to let your silly freedom fighter fantasies supersede the reality of over a half century of life experience. You guys are sheltered and obviously have no street smarts. I have dealt with real violence on a personal level within arms reach (not from a 100 yards away, nor sparring in some amateur hick town mcdojo school); This is not school yard fights, its a lot more serious than that; I know people from my neighborhood who were killed or maimed, or hospitalized, (stabbed and shot), because their attackers really wanted to hurt you and play for keeps. If you cannot understand that, thats fine, but do not expect people who live in the real world to go along with your infantile pseudo freedom fighter fantasies. 

I know that you prefer to use arrogance instead of real knowledge/experience when making statements, but maybe its time for people like you to grow up.

STMcC (August 8, 2016)
First of all, my comment wasn’t directed to you, but your LEO-related ego couldn’t resist responding with 200 words of assumptions about me.

>>… I guess you do not understand the concept of statistical outliers, which always exist.

Well, you got me there. Clearly you are a man possessing far greater intellectual capacity than I have, as this never even occurred to me. “Statistical outliers”… ooohh, fancy!

I don’t even know what a “freedom fighter fantasy” is, but if you’d read my first post, you’d know that my views are based on a LOT of first-hand experiences. I also have over half a century of life experiences under my belt. Born and raised in the hick town of Los Angeles, and have only the street smarts I acquired while living in racially-diverse lower economic areas. I’ve lost count of how many people I grew up with who are dead now due to drugs and crime. (And my BEST friend was killed by a car thief in 1989.)

And I hold all the Social Justice Warrior opinions one would expect from a guy who is a strict Constitutionalist, Bible-studying follower of Jesus Christ who has about 20 years of Security experience.

This just goes to show you how completely out of touch you guys are with the Everyman’s opinion of cops . Yeah, buddy, even the vast majority of us law-abiding, conservative, senior citizens distrust and dislike you boys in blue. An intelligent person would acknowledge that reality and then contemplate and seriously, objectively analyze the reasons for it. But a person of lesser intelligence would just continue whitewashing that fact and continue defending the LEOs while making dozens of false assumptions about those with critical opinions.

SteveRogers42 (August 8, 2016)
Whew! Just wanted to stagger up from under the burden of being “crushed” to send this out. The irony is heavy with this one:

All rugged individualists and cop-haters run to the police when they need help. The cognitive dissonance in their minds must be “crushing”.

STMcC (August 8, 2016)
Oh, hey, that one story changes everything! Good job. Everything I’ve personally experienced, read, studied, and heard from trusted others for several decades was just wiped out by that one article!

The last thing I’d do is call a cop. I’m a staunchly pro-2nd Amendment guy who exercises that right. Speaking solely for myself, I won’t be needing or wanting your help. Besides, you’d probably just show up and shoot my dog anyway.

JoeF (August 9, 2016)
Did not include me??? Hmmm, you mentioned my pseudonymic handle in your post????

Now by using a simple concept from statistics as ‘statistical outlier’ is not trying to be fancy as much as just seeking objective truth. Your type seems unable to examen things objectively on a case by case basis. That is because you are completely consumed with resentment, and a desire to condemn your political enemies. And since you claim to actually have lived in an area that had real consequences in regards to criminal violence, there is even less of an excuse for you to contradict reality.

If you stated that there are inherent problems with policing like summons quotas and the abuse of stop & seize, I can agree. If you stated that some cops are aggressive egocentrics who abuse their authority (that even some of their peers do not like to work with), again I can agree that such individuals exist. However you want the rest of us to accept that you are clairvoyant & omniscient, and can determine, from your localized living location, that all 400,000 cops throughout the nation, whom you never met before, are all as you say they are. Sorry but that is either arrogant, hysterical, stupid, or insane.

And that is the answer to utu’s question of why people do not wake up & agree with him – - because what he says sounds like he is a wack job to the majority of people who are capable rationally discerning distinctions. Instead anti cop types wants the rest of us to accept their ranting emotional outbursts as well reasoned factual content. And if they do not get 100% compliant agreement, they get upset and name call (I must be honest, I do not remember you doing it, but utu cannot contain himself).

And your right I do not prefer self professed social warriors, who are just a bunch of panderers wanting to do the politically correct thing in order to feel good about themselves (at the expense of the rest of us who work hard and pay our taxes). And why am I concerned with this? Because you may have forgotten when urban homicide rate was ubiquitous, but I remember those days clearly. And your methods will just bring those days back again. And all the blacks that you social warriors claim to love so much (to pander & feel good about yourselves) will be the majority of those victims. But after all, why should you care, ideology prevails over all other considerations in the social warrior world view. [And if I am wrong about any of this I will stand corrected]

STMcC (August 9, 2016)
This is the last time I intend to respond to either of you LEOs, as it’s clear you are incapable of “LISTENING” beyond your own assumptions and worldviews. I have intellectually honest people waiting on replies from me at other sites and via Email while I’m wasting valuable time here in a fruitless effort to get you to see any color other than “Blue”.

>>… Hmmm, you mentioned my pseudonymic handle in your post?

Your “pseudonymic handle”? Oh, you mean your pseudonym? Your pen name? Your nickname?

I never write “metropolis” for seven cents because I can get the same price for “city.” I never write “policeman” because I can get the same money for “cop.”
~ Mark Twain

Some of what has still to be learned by the West may appear to be almost absurdly simple and elementary, but it is important nonetheless. For example, never to use a long word where a short one will serve equally well, never to write with the idea of proving one’s own erudition but rather in order to ensure that one’s ideas shall be made as understandable to the reader as possible.
~ Douglas Hyde
(from his book “Dedication And Leadership”)

>>… Now by using a simple concept from statistics as ‘statistical outlier’ is not trying to be fancy as much as just seeking objective truth.

A point I have clearly alluded to several times in my posts here is that decent, honest, “To Protect And Serve” law enforcement officers (I’ll call them “Sheriff Richard Macks”) are the statistical outliers. It has become increasingly obvious to the vast, vast majority of decent, honest, law-abiding citizens (another point I’ve made repeatedly) over the last few decades that the vast majority of cops are “militarized”, thuggish, fascistic revenue collectors for the state who entered law enforcement after leaving the military because they were considered prime applicants for that work and to appease their aggressive natures and thirst for adventure. (NOT because they are great lovers of mankind, law and order, and relish the idea of providing a service to the common citizen.)

You can deny this until your face is as blue as your uniform but it won’t change the fact that it’s a fact. I base this view on the opinions of 98% of the civilians I know (none of which have criminal backgrounds). I mentioned my two decades of Security work. 98% of all the security officers I’ve worked with distrust and dislike cops as much as I do. But this is a meaningless fact, right? It’s the prevailing outlook of civilians and security officers, but it couldn’t POSSIBLY have anything to do with the majority of their LEO interactions and the LEO interactions of their families, friends and neighbors, right? When most of the “good citizens” dislike cops, the problem is with the cops. It ain’t even laundromat science. You are deep in denial, and obviously nothing I say here is going to alter your professional tunnel vision.

>>… Your type … is … completely consumed with resentment, and a desire to condemn your political enemies.

I’ve already cautioned you against making grand personal assumptions about me but the authoritarian LEO mindset can’t seem to help it. What is this resentment I have? What has any of this to do with “political enemies” I might have? I’m a Constitutionalist, and despite your second attempt to lump me in with them, my anti-SJW credentials are AT LEAST as numerous and vigorous as yours. I am not a “type”, but all of my years working around and with cops at the police station and on countless ride-alongs showed me that, to police officers, there are essentially two “types”: The Blue and everything else.

On your behalf, however, I can applaud the fact that you acknowledge inherent problems with summons quotas and stop and seize policing concepts. Now if we could only get you to wake up and admit to the many other serious ongoing issues in so-called law enforcement.

>>… Because you may have forgotten when urban homicide rate was ubiquitous, but I remember those days clearly. And your methods will just bring those days back again. And all the blacks that you social warriors claim to love so much (to pander & feel good about yourselves) will be the majority of those victims.

One of the misconceptions you are laboring under is an overestimation of the value of police forces. I have scholarly studies that show a majority of armed citizens cut crime far more than police forces do. But I’m not going to waste any more time here by digging them out and copying them here.

And if I ever needed an object lesson in how useless police forces are when TSHTF Big Time, I got it during the “Rodney King Riots” when the cops literally disappeared from all the streets of Los Angeles for three days. Understandably, they were bunkered down in their own homes protecting their own families. The rioting Blacks, interestingly, did NOT venture outside of their own neighborhoods, knowing that there are one or many more firearms in at least 50% of the homes of White people. Due to numbers, firepower and superior strategizing, if there ever is a full-on race war in this country, it will end surprisingly (to some) quickly and without the need of LEOs.

I’ll leave you with these websites. I do not believe one whit that you could objectively, diligently, with intellectual honesty read these posts for an entire year and still maintain your belief that bad cops are the “statistical outlier”. And bear in mind that these are accounts of “bad cops caught” and can by no means be considered a comprehensive view of the total number of bad cops currently employed to “protect and serve” the general populace.

Off duty: End of report.

JoeF (August 10, 2016)
Thanks for your comment but all this unidimensional anti cop obsession talk is getting boring, along with the arrogance pretending to be omniscience. Have a good day sir and enjoy trolling with your other friends. I will not waste anymore of your time with reason because you are obviously completely controlled by your negative emotions and resentments.

And that's how easy it is to reason with cops. They always listen well because they're always interested in hearing what the public, whom they protect and serve, thinks of the job they're doing. This was a positive interaction I had with law enforcement officers which has gone a long way toward convincing me that my former opinion of them was misguided and in need of reevaluation.

~ Stephen T. McCarthy

Wednesday, July 27, 2016


Cheezburger LOL by ProvDog

~ Stephen T. McCarthy

Tuesday, July 26, 2016


Cheezburger LOL by ProvDog

~ Stephen T. McCarthy

Saturday, July 9, 2016


I - I - I - am feeling very sentimental today, as I'm sure you could tell by the title of this blog bit. ["Big boys don't cry. Big boys don't cry. Big boys don't wet their beds."]

There is a theme here but you'll seek it in vain like an amnesiac dog digging for a bone he buried in a soap opera. Best to just accept this blog bit as a potpourri and enjoy what you can at face value.

S. "MA" D.
May 13, 1931 --- July 9, 2005 (8:21 PM)
"She's Old School
Thru And Thru
Hates The D.H.
And Steroids Too"

"We'll Be Together Again"


Therefore, “Come out from among them
And be separate", says the Lord.

"Known By The Scars"

"If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you."

"And the prophet walked down the mountain 
With the Word of God."

I have given them Your word; and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world.

"Go tell My disciples to meet Me in Galilee"

"Writing's On The Wall" --- Part One

"Writing's On The Wall" --- Part Two

"Time to call bullshit" on "every fucking thing"

~ Stephen T. McCarthy

Saturday, July 2, 2016


Hey, You. ...Yes, YOU! ~

I was just watching the following video:

When I got to the 3:33 point, I remembered having seen that photograph 3 1/2 years ago while researching the Sandy Hook shooting hoax.

From THIS website comes the following photo and quote:

>>... In above picture of alleged victim of Sandy Hook first grade teacher Victoria Soto in the right foreground. In the background on the left we can see a white-haired man making a devil’s horn sign with his hand

And suddenly I had a thought:

Could the white-haired man giving "the devil sign" in the Victoria Soto photo be the SAME white-haired man posing as a cop in the Orlando, Florida, 'PULSE' nightclub shooting press conference below? Bear in mind that he'd be years older now -- heavier, and wearing eyeglasses and a mustache -- but COULD that be the same character?

And for crying-out-loud, what did that (supposed) cop think was so damned funny?! Anyone??

Maybe something to consider.

For further investigation...


Be careful, it's deceptive out there.

~ Stephen T. McCarthy  

Thursday, January 14, 2016


Hokey-Smoke and Hoo-Wee! He's BA-A-ACK!

No, the guy I'm referring to as being back is not me, the infamous STMcC. I'm referring to a great man of God who scares the bejabbers out of atheists and leftists of all stripes. I'm celebrating the return to (relative) freedom of the great Pastor Kent Hovind, also known as "Dr. Dino".

Wait!  Stop!  Don't touch that dial!

I was only kidding when I said I'd be spotlighting a new Christian pastor on this blog every week. In fact, I do intend to write soon about a second Christian pastor whom I greatly admire, but after that, I'll be fresh out of Christian pastors that I can publicly recommend to you peoples. Aside from that, this blog will not be a regular thing, but more like a sporadic thang

The problem was that a few days ago I was surfing the Internet with Surfin' Jesus when I suddenly discovered to my delight that evolutionist-wrecking pastor Kent Hovind had been released from prison. It turns out he was released last July but I had no idea. (Well, 2015 was a really, Really, REALLY rough year for Yours Truly. It was even the first time in, like, 21 or 22 years that I didn't make it all the way through my Bible - Genesis 1 to Revelation 22 - over the course of the 365 days. Bad year! BAD!)

Anyway, I wanted to shout this glorious news about Dr. Dino's freedom from the rooftops but it's too icy here in Reno to climb rooftops, and the news simply wouldn't work or fit on my 'Battle Of The Bands' blog. So... what's a poor boy to do but (*shudder*) un-shutter the "life-changing" 'Ferret-Faced Fascist Friends' blog. DOH!!

First, I want to say that I LOVE Kent Hovind ("John Wayne! John Wayne!") No, I don't agree with him on everything, but then I don't even agree with myself half of the time. I would say that, in my op, Kent Hovind gets it right about 98.6% of the time.  

Some pipsqueak posted the following photo on his blog, mocking Kent Hovind. But I actually like it, in the same sort o' way that I liked it when some Hillary Clinton-loving Lib called me and my friends "Ferret-Faced Fascists" and I adopted that slur to become my blog's title. Man, most Libs just don't know how to throw an effective punch:

Surely you remember me yakking years back about Pastor/Dr. Kent Hovind, right? Blog bits like "All The Dogs In The World Came From A Rock", You're A Mean One, "Atheist", and in the comment section's of 'Agnostic Nativity', and 'The Politics Of Beer (Or, The God-Sized Hole In B.O.'s Soul) - Part 2', (Hokey-Smoke, Stephen! Boy, you wuz at the top o' yo' game wit dat las' one!)

Why do I love Kent Hovind so much? Well, for one thing, he's very funny (in that smart-alecky way that entertains me so!). He speaks Truth to power and frustrates the hell out of hell's minions. 

IMO, that's why Uncle Scam had his I.R.S. go after Hovind. He was making the Evolutionists look ridiculous and that just won't do! 

Make no mistake: Uncle Scam is satan's right hand man. Yes, the U.S. Government consciously (in most cases) works for the devil and is in the process of creating the world government that the "beast" of the Bible will soon come to rule. Yes, I said "soon". Probably in YOUR lifetime. (I'm gonna say it to them again, Girl Wonder...) GET... RIGHT... WITH... GOD!

I love Hovind because Wackypedia hates him so: Kent Hovind at Wackypedia. I live for the day when the Southern Poverty Law Center (SPLC) is critical of me and I have a Wackypedia page that slanders everything about me. THAT, ladies and gentlemen, is how you know you really do frighten satan's lying Establishment! 

Joseph said to them, "...But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people..."
~ Genesis 50 

In reading the following, I was of course immediately reminded of Joseph who "did time" in Egypt. His brothers meant it for evil, but God used it for good and a great deliverance. (God can do that stuffs!) 

Dr. Hovind was very happy to share the fact that while in prison for nine years, he was able to minister to many men inside.

“In prison, it’s like shooting fish in a barrel as far as soul winning,” he said. “You’re stuck with these guys 24/7. And they are generally hurting spiritually and searching and it’s an incredibly great place to win souls and really see lives changed and a wonderful experience for getting the Gospel out.”

“I can see why so much of the New Testament, and the rest of the Bible period, is written from prison or from captivity,” he added. “There’s about 800 men I’ve led to the Lord in the last 9 years. I think we’ll see some real fruit from many of them.” ...

Like the men of the Bible who were imprisoned wrongfully such as Joseph, Daniel, the Prophets, John the Baptist and the apostle Paul, Hovind maintains his innocence and integrity. 

“There was no crime ever on my part,” he said.

Though he has no specific evidence of the fact, Dr. Hovind did express a sentiment that the whole ordeal “had all the fingerprints” of him being targeted by the IRS for his Biblical teaching. ...

As for changing his teaching, Hovind is not moving. He did say that he would press emphasis in different areas, but the ordeal he has gone through has not deterred him.

Dr. Hovind, of, wanted to express his thanks to all those who wrote to him, visited him and supported him, especially with prayers while he was in prison.

“Thank you so much,” he told Sons of Liberty Media to share with those who have supported him. “I don’t see how people make it without the prayers and support of those on the outside.”

“So many people in prison get no prayers, no calls, no visits,” he lamented. “And people could and should be writing and visiting. This often results in double or triple the damage to those in prison by the neglect they receive.”

Dr. Hovind then referenced Matthew 25 and the words of the Lord Jesus:

Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: For I was an hungered, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in: Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me

Then shall the righteous answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungered, and fed thee? or thirsty, and gave thee drink? When saw we thee a stranger, and took thee in? or naked, and clothed thee? Or when saw we thee sick, or in prison, and came unto thee?  

And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.

Dr. Dino (Kent Hovind) Welcome Home Party

Here's my all-time favorite Kent Hovind video. It's long but hilarious and worth coming back to time and time again...

100 Reasons Evolution Is So Stupid - Kent Hovind

Sez me: Atheists are the “useful idiots” of Communists, and Communists are the “useful idiots” of International Bankers, and the International Bankers are the “useful idiots” of Beelzebub. Everyone has their “useful idiot” and satan exploits them ALL.

Christ, however, has “freedom for those who obey” (to quote Michael Card). 

Take it away, Mr. Kent...

Pastor Kent Hovind Exposes The Satanic 'NEW WORLD ORDER'

Kent Hovind OFFICIAL YouTube Channel

Welcome back, Kent! God Bless you, Sir!

As I said, 2015 was a very bad year for me. Bad from start to finish: In December some bitch witch turned me into a newt, and on New Year's Eve I found myself standing at a freeway offramp holding a hand-lettered cardboard sign reading:

Homeless son of a Veteran. Need a Vanilla Latte from Starbucks. Any change helps. God... or Whatever... bless you. 

Yes, at the end of 2015, I was a newt but... I got better. And now I'm reading my Bible daily again and soon (with a little help from my friends) I hope to be meditating daily again. (Meditation: the key to my relationship with Yeshua and His Father.)

It was nice to see all y'all again. Have a nice day...

~ Stephen T. McCarthy

Thursday, November 27, 2014


[Also, 'THE LAST WALTZ' - Part 1 Of 2]

On September 2, 2012, I published here at 'Ferret-Faced Fascist Friends' a blog bit titled 'How I'm Getting Over (The Hell That Is 2012)'. Pretending to be my brother Napoleon, in the comment section of that blog bit I wrote as a joke: It is my sad duty to inform you all that on Monday, September 3rd, Stephen committed suicide using a raw artichoke, a bottle of Hershey's chocolate syrup, and a Korean War dog tag. (Don't ask - believe me, you don't want to know!)” Well, as you can tell by this writing, I did manage to survive 2012 without offing myself with a raw artichoke. Unfortunately though, things have only gotten worse for me since 2012. I'll spare you the details. Just know that due to the combination of my home life and my job life, I have felt dead for over 3 years now – dead, Dead, DEAD!

Hokey-Smoke & Hoo-Wee! “This world” is full of surprises and I'm often bewildered by the twists & turns one life can take. Up can turn Down when you least expect it. In can turn Out when you're least prepared for it. And sometimes to your utter amazement you can find that folks you thought were so strong emotionally fold when it's 'Crunch Time'. (And sometimes that person folding can be us.) You can think you have all your ducks in a row and then life can turn on a dime, and not always in a positive direction.

Decisions that other folks make - completely independent of your input - can impact your life in ways you'd have never imagined and take your future plans and rip them into chunks 'n' tatters like a lost kite picked up by a passing tornado. That's where I am today. I had experienced some good times and some bad times, but I thought that after the suicides of two friends and the murder of a third, my worst times were behind me. And then... and then... here came the blues again!

I guess sometimes the best thing – or only thing – we can do is start over again from scratch. And now I know I have to step out in the darkness and take a chance, because I simply cannot live any longer with this anger and depression I've been feeling. I MUST respond to the situation; I MUST make changes to try salvaging what is left of the time I will live beyond this 55th year I'm enjoying [Cough!-Cough!] right now.

As some of you already know, I am intending to move out of Airheadzona in three months. Another change is that I am now, with this blog bit, officially making 'Ferret-Faced Fascist Friends' inactive. I've said everything here about politics and spirituality that I have to say (and I've said it all about 12 different ways). The only thing I never got to was my A-List examination of the U.S. Military, but some of you can probably imagine some of the things that blog bit would have contained.

As it is, I already have a collection of notes for that proposed anti-U.S. Military blog bit that is longer than your right and left arm combined. Will I ever return here and publish it? Maybe. But I wouldn't bet any money on it, and it won't be for quite awhile, if it happens at all. I need to walk away from this blog, get my life back in order, reignite my past Spiritual life and begin Meditating daily again, because I don't feel as close to God as I used to. At one time, I felt like I was in a state of prayer 24/7/365. I haven't felt that good in a long time.

Over the last year, some things have happened that I believe I can rightly interpret as God putting an Arm around me while whispering, “Remember Me, Stephen. Return to Me, My son.” I am going to share a few of those things with you before I leave.

There is a library where I work. During down times I'd take my Holy Bible in there and read it in a comfortable chair in a corner of one room, which just by mere chance happened to be the Religion section of the library. One night I glanced to my left and saw a book on a shoulder-height shelf next to me. It was titled 'GOD OF HOPE'. What really caught my attention though was the surname of the author: Illingworth. One of the men who 31 years ago founded the place where I work was a Christian minister named Illingworth, so curious, I pulled the book down from the shelf and discovered that it had been written by J. Davis Illingworth, the son of the organization's founder. On the title page was a handwritten note from the author, and it said: Listen to your heart. Romans 8:28.

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
~ Romans 8:28

I read 'GOD OF HOPE'. Already very familiar with The Holy Bible, there wasn't anything in the main body of the text that I didn't already know. But in the first chapter, 'Playing Chess With God', the author included some personal background information that really, Really, REALLY spoke to me. Here are the relevant excerpts:

I grew up in Wheeling, West Virgina, where my father was a minister. … My father always told me that God has a purpose and a plan for the lives of those who love Him (Romans 8:28). My father said that if he would play a game of chess with a master chess player like Bobby Fischer, no matter what move he would make on the board, Bobby Fischer would win. Similarly, in the game of life, God will always win but in a positive way. No matter what decision we make in life, God will make His move on the board of life that will get us who love Him where we are supposed to be when we are supposed to be there to fulfill His purpose and plan for our lives.

Our house had not even been listed yet, when two prospective buyers viewed the house on Saturday morning. The first couple offered us full price, and the second couple offered more than the asking price. Checkmate! We were moving to Cleveland, Ohio.

There are SO MANY little details in that story that speak to me that I can barely read it without feeling moisture welling up in my eyes.

Not too long afterwards, I was again in that library, seated in the same chair and reading some book of my own (probably The Bible) when I glanced to my left again and saw a book titled 'BEAUTIFUL OUTLAW' sitting there on the same shelf. It was written by somebody named John Eldredge. I was wondering: What is a book called 'BEAUTIFUL OUTLAW' doing in the Religion section?

I was too curious! This punk HAD to know. So I plucked the book from the shelf. The next thing I knew, I had read it cover-to-cover three times and had sent copies to about twelve friends, and I had written and published a review of it here at F-FFF:


'BEAUTIFUL OUTLAW' didn't really teach me anything about Christ Yeshua that I didn't already know, but it was one of the very best books I have ever read – it immediately leaped onto my all-time Top 10 list – and it contained a message that I badly needed to be reminded of... at least three times ...because I had wandered so far from my Walk with my Holy King, my Best Friend, and my Big Brother.

On April 18, 2014, my buddy LC (DiscConnected) and I went to the Musical Instrument Museum for a Rickie Lee Jones concert. She played some of my favorite RLJ songs such as 'Young Blood', 'Chuck E.'s In Love', 'We Belong Together', 'On Saturday Afternoons In 1963', and 'Coolsville'. But for me (and I never mentioned this to LC) the highlight of the entire concert was when Rickie played a song I had never heard before. The song was 'THE MOON IS MADE OF GOLD', and I found out later that it was actually written by Rickie's late father.

While Rickie was standing center-stage and singing that song, it went straight into my heart and warmed me in a Divine-like way. I KNEW FOR SURE that I was MEANT to be hearing that song right then and there. God was speaking directly to me through that song, so I made it a point to remember the chorus so I could look it up later and find out where it came from, because I NEEDED to own a copy of it.

Curiously, I discovered that the song was from a RLJ album titled – of all things – 'BALM IN GILEAD'. (I trust you catch the significance.)

Basically, 'THE MOON IS MADE OF GOLD' is a “look for the silver lining” song, but it's upgraded to GOLD. And I still believe it was a gold that God wanted me to pay special attention to:

Don't feel bad because the Sun went down
The night has wealth untold
Just keep watching and you soon will see
The Moon is Made of Gold
And one by one
Your dreams will all come true
Magic you'll behold
Don't feel bad because the Sun went down
The Moon is Made of Gold

'THE MOON IS MADE OF GOLD' – Rickie Lee Jones

Continued in PART TWO.
For Part Two, click HERE.

~ Stephen T. McCarthy

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